uglyas...

a prayer chair or two -

aww aren't they cute?

i bought them off of trade-me for $17.50.  they border on the ugly.  but i love them.  they are my prayer chairs :).

.... oooh - been feeling like this for sooooo long -


     out on a rock - alone - cold stormy waters surrounding me - people walking by - some stopping to look - some stopping to stare - but no one daring to come near - 'will it bite' - 'will it attack' - 'why is it all by itself' - then moving on - 

     

my testimony....




she was empty, lost and lonely
she had long been thrown away
she had lost the will to struggle
and fight another day... 


so she went up to the carpenter
the one upon the hill...
with his hammers and his chisels
and his very special will


and she lay her life before him
so unworthy and unclean
and he began to carve the princess
like none has ever seen


in silence and in quiet
through windy nights and fearful storms
he chiselled on relentlessly
to bring about the form


the form that lay within the life
the one they tried to hide
the one the carpenter laid eyes on
the princess locked inside


upon that life of ugliness
he chiselled and he ground
the carpenter carved all through the night
and the little girl was found


and when they all came searching
for the one they threw away
they happened upon the princess
and the carpenter in their way


and when they tried to hurt her
and mock the carved one's trust
the carpenter took their judgements
and he ground them into dust


and he set her at the table
and he laid for her a feast
and he said, you are a princess
and not a worthless beast


and he bade them all - come closer
and have a look with me
at what you called unworthy
at what you didn't see


and i will show you beauty
that only i can see...




                       ... and then he turned and kissed the princess


                             ...he had hidden deep in me.
   

ugly as...anything

i used an old lamp and covered it with
magazine pictures - 'priceless'

why is it...


that the moment something becomes popular
all of a sudden
it becomes expensive
when - usually - not always

it has been created
out of need or
necessity
and probably 
because
someone who was poor 
and who couldn't afford
to buy the expensive thing
decided instead to
create something else
that would do - then it would be beautiful
because it cost just about nothing
and it looked great
and it was the only one
around
and that would make it priceless
and priceless
is pretty expensive
which is strange -

i covered this one with tissues -
crazy!

hairless - means no hair
priceless - should mean - no price
which of course - it does
but for some crazy reason -
to have no price -
means to be so expensive -
that only someone with heaps of money-
can price it!



Crazy as!

ugly as...naked

there is a writer
beside
a naked bulb


every word
is not discarded
or thrown away
as rubbish


for they hold
ideas
moments
of
genius


oh for a naked bulb
an empty rubbish bin
and 
courage


yes please

ugly as...squandering your life...

i have squandered my money
i have squandered my love
i have squandered my time
i have squandered my energy
i have squandered my trust...


squander: to spend or use extravagantly or wastefully, to dissipate, to cause to disperse, to lose an opportunity


dissipate: intemperate in the pursuit of pleasure


disperse: to drive off or scatter


intemperate:  having or showing a lack of self-control


extravagant: lacking in moderate balance and restraint


all in the pursuit of happiness...


sometimes you have to see it in black and white to get it




                   
                   

ugly as...repetitiveness

if we all sat down
and wrote a book
about our lives
i wonder how different
our stories would be?


i wonder if the important stuff
would differ greatly
or
would we all
just spit out
exactly the same stuff


i think it's amazing
how many times
i repeat things
but maybe
it's so i'll
remember
not 
to 
forget

ugly as...school heaters

my $1 trademe bargain memory maker

...remember the days
    warming your hands
    burning your stockings
    drying your socks
    these were the best reasons
            for going to school
    

ugly as...not even

on a grey gloomy tauranga day...
i stayed in my dressing gown...
and the thought of laziness
crossed my mind...
so did the thought of wastefulness...


but humbug...


so i used my time
to take photos
of home...


and it amazes me
how beautiful things look








maybe that's how magazines do it

just- maybe not
in their dressing gowns

                                          

ugly as...risking humiliation

...vessels...

...naked we came in
       & (apparently)
...naked we go out


...and the in between time
   we spend
   clothing ourselves


...in everything
   
...but splendour


                       what idiots